Picking Up...

Again, I would like to say I am sorry that I have abandoned this blog for a while and face the real world while fixing my current problem.

Its like 5am now and I am still wide awake. For the past 2 months was a torture for me. I could not even sleep properly, eat properly or even do anything properly. I was not even myself. I have been trying my very best to step out of it but it is not that easy as I always tell my friends when they faced the same problem.

So here I am, trying to get out from the hole I got myself into years ago. Want everyone to know and who cares about me, I am trying my best although it might take a while.

Lost.

First of all, I would like to say sorry for the long hiatus.

I was not in a very good mood for the past few weeks. Things have been happening around my life but they do not go the way I really wanted that forced me to be very down. And even right now, things are not so much different from the past few weeks, in fact it is worse. Right now, I long for someone who I can cry to (Guys do cry at times!!) No matter how much I try to hide things from my family, my siblings and even my friends, it just hurts me so much. I was not really myself for the past few weeks. I realized I do not talk as much as I used to, I do not laugh as much as I used to, I do not behave how I used to and I am not even myself anymore. I just could not explain how I really feel right now. I really wished I could express what I am going through right now to someone, someone that is close to me, someone that knows me for who I am. I'm so lost right now. Can I be the man that I used to be?